Pork chops

So the X came Sat morning to the twins’ basketball games, yet again without his girlfriend. It has been kinda interesting that she hasn’t been at any of the games, even when they have the kids given how jealous she is about him being anywhere near me. But Sat after the game he and I were talking about the kids. I try to keep him informed of as much of their doings as possible, even the little mundane things. Off hand I mentioned that KB was having a friend spend Sat night and she had requested pork chops for dinner. He said he missed my pork chops so I reminded him that we have one of the best known meat markets in our little town and he should pick a few. He knows my recipe (which is mostly about sprinkling on garlic powder, etc before pan frying them) so I wasn’t understanding why he would be so incredibly wistful about my pork chops. Well he goes to say that the other members of his household don’t like seasonings on food, they prefer everything bland and prefer eating out all the time.

We talked a couple of times that afternoon because I thought CT might have broken his nose and I wanted his expertise (as a EMT) about what to watch for and if it meritted a trip to the ER. He called later that night and talked to me for 30 minutes about his career outlook.

All of this points to the fact that he is once again unhappy with his relationship and once again I’m the fallback person in his life. However this time, I’m just observing his wandering lost and not feeling anything for him but pity. He needs to learn to live his life alone before he can share it with someone else. I see this in so many people, they hustle from one relationship to another because being alone is unbearable. Again you can’t find happiness with someone else unless you are first happy within yourself.