This morning I had an epiphany. It started with my usual analyzing of things that I see others doing with their lives and I realized I really needed to start analyzing my own life. I have been adrift lately, just kinda going through the motions of life without living it. I am not dissatisfied with life right now but have that knowledge it could be better.
In relation to someone else (the ex) I was thinking of how he felt like I didn’t need him enough in our marriage. I didn’t need him because he never gave of himself and I had learned to do without him for so long. But truthfully I am asking myself what do I give others right now. Yes I’m a good listener to friends and I do give support and advice (I’m very good at the advice which is not really a good thing). But I don’t give.
I’m going to start giving more. More time with my kids, more energy to my kids. That is something I have not been doing. I need to find a charity to give some time to also. Perhaps why I am not able to find someone who wants me is because I have been selfish of my time and very lazy with my energy.
I’ll blog again but not to criticize others which is something I do give away too easily. Instead I need to use my blog to help focus on the things that are important.
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